Sometimes you feel like you're the eternal audience of everyone else's lives. As if the main purpose of your existence is for you to be just a reflection of other people's routine. You are their mirror. You are their always changing picture. You don't live. You reflect.

You wake up at 9:30-10 am. You wash your face. Cool shower. Hot coffee. First cigarette. After that - "let the reflecting begins!" You go out from your little shell a.k.a home. You walk around. You see people. You remain silent. You are the walking viewer. You are here but you're not existing. You just watch. You watch how other people, just like you, instead of living their simple lives are watching the world around them. A whole ocean of walking mirrors - some bigger than others.

And you all live together your complicated lives. Instead of enjoying the "now", you (we) are breathing for tomorrow. You're expecting it. You're hoping that it's going to bring you "sunshine and butterflies". You prefer to wait a little bit more( what exactly are you still waiting for? )

You waste your day. You quickly rush into the next morning when the ritual repeats itself. 9:30-10. Washed face - check! Cool shower - check! Coffee - check! Cigarette - check! And again, you take the same path, you pass by the same places ( maybe even the same people, who knows). You just stare through people as if all of a sudden there's going to be a miracle that eventually will turn your life upside down. But, honestly, aren't you just a little fed up of being the ultimate "waiting line"? Aren't you tired of living every single day on a hold mode? Aren't you bored of always being a person of few words and fewer actions? Aren't you sick of being just a smooth, shiny surface for other people's images? Don't you wish just for a second instead of being a light reflector to actually glow?

Go to sleep now. It's a little late. There's another "tomorrow" waiting on the line. There's another cigarette expecting you  after the cool shower....somewhere around 9:30-10 am.



And the radio sings along:

...You'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...